At last, an update

I finally have an opportunity to do a little writing. I have been so busy at work and home. It's actually hard to write this. Now that I have a moment where I don't have to think about anything, my brain has just shut down. My thoughts are scattered and it's difficult for me to put them in order.

I don't think I will ever be a normal person again. I am still super emotional and irrational. It's frustrating. I also can't remember random things - like where I put the student file I literally JUST had in my hand.

Lucas had his 4-month shots a couple weeks ago. He is such a trooper. He weighs 18 lbs now. Yikes! I still can't believe how fast he is growing. I get sad each time he outgrows an outfit. I love to watch him and Nathan together. My favorite times are when Luke is in his pj's and sitting on Daddy's lap in the rocking chair, contentedly chewing on his tiny fingers while Dad reads bedtime stories. It melts my heart.

It's still hard to leave him at daycare. I feel like I rarely get to see him. This morning when I dropped him off, I was so reluctant to hand him over. I was thinking, But I haven't even gotten to see him smile yet today.

Well, my free time is about to come to a close. Hopefully I can do a longer update soon.